thank { full }

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today is the day of eating turkeys and watching football and getting together with your relatives to pack on a few extra pounds that, let’s face it, we totally won’t regret in the morning. at least, me and the little bebe inside me don’t regret a single thing.

today was also the day i finally went to thanksgiving with the fiancee’s side of the family. and oh man do i love them. there were children, children everywhere. food. football. card games that got way too intense. there were baby bumps with the other lovely lady in the family who is all preggers right now too { we quite enjoy ourselves }. and there was food.

so i am stuffffffed with not only amaaazing food today { and like super extreme excitement for little baby beck on the way, and also hoping that this little one is a boy, but crossing my fingers we don’t have all. boys. forever. it’s kinda a beck tradition. and oh man i don’t think i can handle a houseful of boys. but, seriously people say that all the time. and survive. so. }, but i am also filled to the brim with thankfulness.

thankfulness for love and family and support. and for encouragement when life gets just too darn stupid for any human to deal with on their own. thankfulness for warm food and a warm home and cozy scarves. today i am thankful for being home, for being in a place i adore, the place i grew up in. thankful for a Lord and Savior who, in His last moments of hanging on a cross for the entirety of the world’s sins, had my name on His lips, and died so that in turn i could love. thankful for unconditional love. thankful for new life, and for clean slates, and for baby fingers and toes and noses.

and more than anything, thankful for a man who loves me more than life. for a boy that i had a crush on in junior high who turned into a man, like overnight. before my very eyes. a man that was my best friend through high school and decided he wanted to stick around for the long haul. i’m thankful for a man who is a provider by nature, and a man of the Lord. a man who knows what family is. a man who i know, for certain, will never leave my side and will love me through any. circumstance. i am thankful for a man who once gave me butterflies in my tummy, that now have turned into little tiny feet.

i am so thankful for you, love of my life.

what are you thank { full } for?

xoxo.

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at home

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and it’s just one of those nights that puts a big ol’ smile right across your face. first, watching cartoon movies with my little sibs and making pregnant ladies’ cookie dough. yes, that is a real thing. no, i do not advise you to try it. no one should eat that much cookie dough. found it on pinterest and it has no eggs and wierd things so you can eat it straight. it might be the worst best worst thing ever invented. maybe.

second, just working through some things in this worrisome brain of mine and reading the Lord’s word for some answers. i can’t even imagine how drastic my life would change if i actually took to heart the things that the Lord has written down in His word for me. He is in. control. completely. If I believed that, and believed all that comes along with it (including some serious side effects like unconditional love and forgiveness), my life would be completely derailed. for the better.

so, i need to work on that. big time. Lord, you are so good and you are so righteous and holy. If i follow the steps you set out for me, surely you’re going to take me under your wings. for.ev.er.

thirdly, it’s cold outside, baby. and that means cold weather outfits. and that, my friends, means. scarves. and other knitted goodies. because i will sit on the couch all night, snuggled up with a movie and the fiancé and my knitting needles. i think i’m an old soul. so, really excited for that. SO excited, in fact, that i have big news. this ol’ knitting hobby is gonna get me somewhere, yessir.

i’m opening an etsy shop. an etsy shop for big cozy scarves and such. so check that out. buy a scarf or two to keep you and your lovelies warm this holiday season.

{ coming soon }

p.s. tomorrow is thanksgiving. i’m gonna eat and eat til this little one inside me knows what thanksgiving is all about. eating being thankful, of course. this thanksgiving, i’m thankful for you, fiancé. and for being home. and for people that love and support way past your understanding. and for a God and savior who loves you, no matter what.

and for yummy food.

these blogs

i am obsessed with blogs. a few in particular. i can only hope and pray and cross my fingers tight that i could design and maintain a blog half as great as these ladies have. so these are my inspiration! i’m sorry if i’m taking their ideas! i promise you will get HOOKED. click on the pictures to go check out their cute little corners of the internet ❤

there’s just something about a good blog.

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colemans in love.

they are such sweet people with an even sweeter child.. so inspirational to read. they love eachother and they love their little one, and they are so cute while doing so! check out their blog for the colemans wisdom through the early years, raising a son, and learn more about fanconi anemia: the battle that their little one is fighting.

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lovemebright

this is kind of a new one for me, but ever since i found this momma’s blog i have been ob.sessed. obsessed. she not only has a style that i just drool over, but her journaling over the course of her pregnancy is to-die-for cuuute. i love her style inspiration for the baby bump, the way she balances her husbands ever-cool busy work schedule and having fun and lovin as a couple, and not to mention. she has a baby.

{ Designs by Shelb }

designs by shelb

shelby is actually a friend of mine, and is expecting a baby right now too 🙂 she has the sweetest spirit and loves the Lord, and that translates into a beautiful blog. her blog is full of ideas on how to decorate for different seasons, parties, and little ways to personalize your home. she is also, like, a professional when it comes to chalk boarding. so just prepare to be jealous.

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the daybook blog

this. this is the first blog i ever started religiously following. this little lady ALSO has style that i die over, like seriously. all through her pregnancy she was cuter than cute and now she’s just the same. and her little one, everett, is the funniest little guy. pictures of his antics will keep you giggling, for sure. i will be stealing her baby style AND a bunch of other things she has put in everett’s nursery when my little one comes 🙂 she does tons of giveaways too, so if that’s not a plus, i don’t know what is.

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ruffling feathers

emily frame is another new one for me, but since obviously i get obsessed a little too easily some might say, i already love her and her blog. her children are the sweetest little boys that have more style than i do, and she is a stylist. for a living. for real? she also does this feature where she takes a pin from the ever-cool pinterest and brings it to life with different style ideas. love that.

so, go check em out.

but please come back to me when you’re done. i don’t want to get lonely over here.

and also in other news, am i the only pregnant lady who cannot for the life of her remember to take her prenatals everyday? i swear, i’m going to have to start taping them to my forehead to remember. sorry, little bun in my oven. but in my defense, they are really yucky vitamins. not complaining. just saying, you better appreciate momma here on the outside.

hello baby { 15 weeks }

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today i am 15 weeks pregnant. and today, today this morning i can actually see the teeniest baby bump right where it should be. and it’s all pure little baby. our baby. that we created together. i am just overwhelmed with love for this little one this morning. i can feel the roundness that my tummy will soon be surrounded in. and. i. am. so. excited. excited for the prospect of life. excited for meeting this little one and lovin on this little one with its daddy. because he’s excited too.

turns out all those weeks of feeling yucky, of not being able to keep my eyelids awake, or losing the desire for only my favorite thing in the world { coffee } was, and is, worth it. it’s all worth it if i get to meet this little one growing inside me.

last night i moved back to my hometown, and today was a peaceful morning.

hello baby. mommy and daddy can’t wait to meet you.

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27 months

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i want to love you in physical. not just through words. i want you to hear me say i love you and i want to kiss you and i want to warm up your hands with mine and touch the back of your neck and i want to love you in physical. in words. in emotions. in feeling. i want to love you here. with me. but i will love you over distance and silence and empty spaces until i can see you and be with you. and let my love be with you when i am not there. because its raining and the night is dark but it’d be darker if i did not have the thought of you to keep me company. and i love you so much it’s keeping my heart lit up. even if the light does not reach my eyes or reach my smile or anything visible. you’re the only thing in my heart and you’re the only one. the only one i’ve learned how to love, and more than that, the only one i want to love. because i know you and my heart knows you and this is my favorite. i know the way you don’t like to listen to music very loud when i’m in the car so we can talk, even if it is a very good song and i want it loud. i know how you sound when you sleep and i know how you dream because you tell me and i know the way that you kiss my mouth hard and the way you taste and the warmth of your body on mine and the way you smell and the way we smell when we’re together. and the way you always roll down your window when i leave so i can kiss you one more time. i know the way you will call me as soon as you get out of class so you can talk to me as you walk back to your car, and i know the way that you’ll message me one last time before you go to sleep, even if i have been asleep hours before. i know the way that you cry and i know the sound of your voice when i know you’re getting tired and weak and sad. and i know the look you give when you’re angry and the way you say you’re sorry. i know the sounds you make when we kiss and the way your hands run over my back and i know all of this about you. and i keep it in my heart and i keep all of you in my heart, even the things you don’t know about yourself. but i’m noticing. everything you do and everything you say and every way you love me. and i love you so much and i don’t know how to show you the extent of my love for you. because you are not here and i am not there and distance is a son of a bitch but it is only physical and anything physical can be conquered. everything, really, can be conquered. i swear with this love we can move mountains that get in our path. i could build a city with all this love i have for you.

happy 27 months. 18 more days until the rest of forever.

(27 months was really sunday. but the love is still there, even though this post is late)

eleven things to make this winter

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1. a big chunky red scarf like that one

2. a camera strap like this one for my bestie

3. one of these valentine’s day banners for our house in february

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(my valentine all the time)

4.  master the herringbone stitch for to make scarves and other cozy lovely things

5. this mug for my love because the last one i made him is ruined a little past its prime

6. this cute squishy octopus or wallie the whale or this soft rattle giraffe 

7. this pretty baby mobile if baby beck is a girl

8. this sign for our kitchen

9. more stained wooden crates for things in the living room

10. artichokes. enough said.

11. homemade apple pie

also, here’s a picture from my high school’s homecoming game last night! so fun to finally be an alumni woot woot. got to see old friends and watch my little big brother play football. NOT TO MENTION he also escorted the homecoming queen. what. stud.

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also : the very. first. picture. i am actually starting to show any signs of a baby! yesyesyes.

baby bump : me + some very cuute outfits are ready for you.

soo hurry up.