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we took a much-needed trip to a beautiful place today with some of our dearest friends and oh my goodness it finally has snowed in california! so we are so very excited.. all the while some of you i’m sure are v e r y done with seeing snow out your window everyday! the beloved Hume Lake is very close to our hearts and it was so good to spend a day… away. and so near to the Lord’s amazing creation. He is so amazing and so talented and wouldn’t you know it? He has made all of this so we can stand in awe of Him and remember that the Lord has us in the palm of my hand. such a wake up call… recently it’s been an uphill trek to try and stay focused on His plan for my life. but seeing the way that these mountains are formed and the way that our friends love on us and this little babe doing his little dance in my tummy… we might not always have beautiful days, but this is a beautiful, beautiful life. and i am so incredibly thankful for where i am rooted. here in these mountains, i know i am rooted in love. and what more could we possibly ask for?

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by the way. 27 weeks. hello third trimester! bring it on! i’m starting to get serious with my walking schedule and getting ready to be strong through labor and delivery! by the way . . . that glucose test you have to take? phew, that one is a doozy! i chugged that nasty drink that tasted like straight sugar concentrate, was on a sugar high for maybe m a y b e five minutes, then absolutely crashed and was a wreck the entire day, so glad we can check that off the list! the results come back next monday, pray for a pass so i don’t have to take the three-hour test! i can’t even imagine what that would be like. getting very very excited for baby beck to be here. hope your week is happy happy happy. xoxo.

it’s been awhile, where you been?

ohmygoodness here we are at 25 – almost 26 – weeks!! i’ve been gone for so long! i am going to hate myself one day for skipping so many weeks with the belly pictures and the updates, but oh well! might just have to have another little bebe so i can do it all over again heehee. so many things to get caught up on…

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so, i p o p p e d.

belly button forgot to pop, but that’s okay, it’s still flat as can be! i got one of those baby bellies that popped out and will probably be about the same size for a few weeks. i am not complaining. i can’t imagine getting any bigger, but i know i will! eek! hubby is getting tired of hearing me whine about how all my clothes don’t fit me anymore, but i MISS them! it should not be allowed for preggies to get their hands on pictures of what they looked like before. i was so shocked! and sad and wanting my summer body back! #honestly.

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to get everything caught up, we’ll do it this way :

how far along: 25 weeks 5 days

symptoms: mostly just very sleep-deprived. it’s so so hard to find a comfy spot.. i toss and turn all night and that’s WITH a gazillion pillows barricaded around me. i was such a tummy sleeper before this little guy, and i cannot wait until the day that i can sleep on my tummy again! waking up about 3-5 times to go to the bathroom during the night still. and guys guess what? there’s this awesome thing called my SCIATIC NERVE that is literally trying to kill me. i thought i wouldn’t get this preggie symptom! i jinxed myself. i’ll get random shooting pains through mostly my upper thighs, and sometimes right about my hips. it’s so fun. but no nausea! so that’s a blessing! also, it’s getting pretty hilarious over here with the whole “here i know you can’t see your feet anymore but please pee in this teeny tiny cup and do it quickly” song and dance at the doctor’s office. i’m real talented.

weight gain: why is this a topic. why. i’ll just calmly state that i’m over the 25-30 pound norm. pregnancy books should do some rewrites. not ALL woman go through the same weight gain stages. not everyone will have the same pregnancy experience. can we all just accept this. oh my goodness ; )

wedding rings: on but snug as a bug. i got some really cute chubby fingers these days.

cravings: greek yogurt. pickles (i know). sugar. how awful. ooh and kettle cooked salt and vinegar chips. MM. can’t eat them around the man though because he says they’re smelly. i do it anyways. i’m the pregnant one here. i’ll say what’s smelly.

movement: i have speculations as to whether i might be preparing to birth a ninja. this little guy can KICK. he can do this cool trick where he can kick my cervix (at least that’s what it feels like). he’s gonna be a lil stinker like his daddy. oh and he can headbutt me now. always to the right of my belly button. those little hands are waving around too. i can feel him most in the morning after i eat some breakfast and i swear coffee makes him kick, and i can usually feel him in the evenings too. pretty normal. getting sweet braxton hicks too. they don’t hurt, they just feel — i don’t even know. everything tightens up into a ball and i feel like i have to freeze everytime i feel one come on. hah.

belly button: flat. i want it to be an outie, at least for awhile! i don’t know why i am so obsessed with my belly button right now but i AM. my man calls me belly button girl and it makes me giggle.

excited for: decorating the nursery! and hopefully a 4-d ultrasound. and hopefully being able to see his little feet or his booty or an elbow from the outside of my belly! i really just can’t wait for him to be here.

missing: my pre-pregnancy body. a whole lot. and being able to drink caffeine! and being able to stay up past 10!

stretch marks: none on my belly, yes on my sides. still using cocoa butter but kinda slacking because it’s so darn cold! i’m a lazy butt. although my view on stretch marks and such things changed after i read this amazing article. seriously go read it.

how big is baby: somewhere between 1 1/2 – 2 pounds. although i have this sneaky hunch this one is gonna be a big baby. he’s already measuring big! and oh my gosh my uterus is the size of a soccer ball. are you joking me right now. i can’t believe this is humanly possible!

feeling: super, super, super emotional. about everything. you name it, i’m crying. my poor man is walking around on tiptoes! i can’t help it! i’m pregnant and i’m allowed to cry! also addicted to cleaning. like deep cleaning. and it’s been a FABULOUS few days because i am sick. like my whole brain is congested, runny nose, throat is on fire. thank you baby for stealing all of my immune system to protect yourself! i am over here catching every bug that’s floating around.

so that’s that! i’m sure there’s like a million and one more things that i’m forgetting, but that’s all i can remember right now : (

starting to collect some lovely little items for the bebe’s room. still no idea if we’re going to have a “theme” or not. my brain is all over the place with it. i just want him to love it and i want it to be different. and not too baby-ish. i’ll get back to you on that.

super obsessed with etsy baby stores right now. they have like a million. i’m not joking. online shopping is baaaaad….

love is in the air! valentines day is almost here! super bowl is sunday, along with my man’s BIRTHDAY. it’s gonna be a big partayy. real excited for the days ahead. and i promise i’ll never leave my sweet little blog out in the cold ever again.

xoxo

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i know what i’m doing this weekend

d-i-y-momma

my babes is gonna have one of THOSE mommas. the DIY mommas. because who said you can only DIY cute little girl tutus and bows and such? i say boy DIYS are wayyyyyyy funner. yeah, funner. yup that’s right little bebe, you’re gonna have custom made leggins, swaddles, dino sweatshirt!!!, paci clips, an arrow mobile… i’m gonna diy every little corner of this little man’s new world. i’m gettin a head start ASAP, tryin out a few, or two… or three…

tiny harem pants

arrow mobile (no tutorial, i’m just gonna eyeball it, no doubt it’ll be GREAT, i’ll let you know)

custom burp cloths (tribal patterns, YES)

lil’ man onesies w/ freezer paper stencils

triangle teepee hideout 

topknot beanie

swaddles (cool feathers and other prints, i’m thinking..)

DINO HOODIE!!!

kiddo tee (guys, it’s a bear. it’s a free printable. uh, booya.)

leather paci clips (no tutorial, i think i can eyeball this one too. i’ll let ya know.)

mod triangle quilt 

baby leggins from a stretchy skirt (5 min?)

what are your favorite things to DIY?

xoxo

lots of little things

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friday was exactly 19 weeks. may we all take a moment to recognize that my belly button is flat as a pancake. goodness gracious. we’re almost halfway there, little belly of mine. i’ll be happy to lose my belly button if it means i get to see you and your little cute belly button in a few short months.

it’s been a simple little weekend, full of simple little things. cookie-making (the annual tradition, of course) at my grandmother’s house, where i was more or less getting in the way and not improving the baking situation. the man and i went to joanns, where i spent an hour and a half (in pure BLISS, mind you) picking out enough yarn to knit about  one million seven chunky, cozy scarves before christmastime. then we babysat just the sweetest little girl for some friends of ours, and practiced being mommy and daddy. man oh man do i love that man. he’s gonna be the greatest daddy.

here’s to the halfway mark of preggers land on friday! it’s sure to be a wonderful week. (now let’s cross our fingers and hope this awful headache of mine goes away).

xoxo

guess what?

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isaboy. isaboy. isaboy. we are so excited over here!! already got half the nursery picked out, nah. i want him to be here, now, so i can wrap him up in cute blankets and little mocs for christmas! oh well, bebe. you can have a few more months of fattenin up in momma’s belly. lots of dirt and giggles and adventures comin right up. xo.

don’t mind the awkward bathroom selfie

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today today today! we gonna go straight down to the doctor’s office today and see if this little bebe is a boy or a girl! fingers crossed for a boy, shh don’t wanna jinx it! little one is kicking so much, just dancin around so hopefully little babes will cooperate with us today and show us the big surprise! friday i turned 18 weeks, so i am just around the corner from 19 weeks today. don’t know why i only seem to post every other week.. sometimes pregnancy brain kicks in and forgets to tell me i have a blog and someday i am gonna want to remember what i looked like at 18 weeks. ooh well…

christmas is also just right around the corner. i can’t wait to put this little bump in a christmas dress eek. i want this one. i want christmas parties! and decorating cookies! and eating cookies! and wrapping presents! and then a very long drive to arizona with the lover. sure is gonna be a fun one.. with oh just about 103948573920285 bathroom breaks on the drive there in the foreseeable future. heehee. holidays are the best days. for real.

ps. casual style inspiration by the lovely lovemebright lady over here.

xoxo

oh, just ten things pregnancy has made me miss { 17 weeks }

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1. sleeping on my tummy

2. my belly button

3. buttoning my jeans

4. enjoying normal, acceptable food combinations { see note: pickles at every meal is not acceptable }

5. being able to stay up past 9:30

6. remembering { pretty much anything. why i walked into the room, where i set my coffee, when to take my stupid prenatal vitamin }

7. painting my toe nails

8. drinking as much coffee as i want. turns out, i’m addicted. hooray caffeine withdrawal headaches.

9. red bull. seriously, it’s bad for you. i probably shouldn’t have been drinking it in the first place.

10. sushi

one more thanksgiving tomorrow. i’m gonna pass out with all this turkey i’ve consumed.

but. so. yummy.

thank { full }

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today is the day of eating turkeys and watching football and getting together with your relatives to pack on a few extra pounds that, let’s face it, we totally won’t regret in the morning. at least, me and the little bebe inside me don’t regret a single thing.

today was also the day i finally went to thanksgiving with the fiancee’s side of the family. and oh man do i love them. there were children, children everywhere. food. football. card games that got way too intense. there were baby bumps with the other lovely lady in the family who is all preggers right now too { we quite enjoy ourselves }. and there was food.

so i am stuffffffed with not only amaaazing food today { and like super extreme excitement for little baby beck on the way, and also hoping that this little one is a boy, but crossing my fingers we don’t have all. boys. forever. it’s kinda a beck tradition. and oh man i don’t think i can handle a houseful of boys. but, seriously people say that all the time. and survive. so. }, but i am also filled to the brim with thankfulness.

thankfulness for love and family and support. and for encouragement when life gets just too darn stupid for any human to deal with on their own. thankfulness for warm food and a warm home and cozy scarves. today i am thankful for being home, for being in a place i adore, the place i grew up in. thankful for a Lord and Savior who, in His last moments of hanging on a cross for the entirety of the world’s sins, had my name on His lips, and died so that in turn i could love. thankful for unconditional love. thankful for new life, and for clean slates, and for baby fingers and toes and noses.

and more than anything, thankful for a man who loves me more than life. for a boy that i had a crush on in junior high who turned into a man, like overnight. before my very eyes. a man that was my best friend through high school and decided he wanted to stick around for the long haul. i’m thankful for a man who is a provider by nature, and a man of the Lord. a man who knows what family is. a man who i know, for certain, will never leave my side and will love me through any. circumstance. i am thankful for a man who once gave me butterflies in my tummy, that now have turned into little tiny feet.

i am so thankful for you, love of my life.

what are you thank { full } for?

xoxo.

at home

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and it’s just one of those nights that puts a big ol’ smile right across your face. first, watching cartoon movies with my little sibs and making pregnant ladies’ cookie dough. yes, that is a real thing. no, i do not advise you to try it. no one should eat that much cookie dough. found it on pinterest and it has no eggs and wierd things so you can eat it straight. it might be the worst best worst thing ever invented. maybe.

second, just working through some things in this worrisome brain of mine and reading the Lord’s word for some answers. i can’t even imagine how drastic my life would change if i actually took to heart the things that the Lord has written down in His word for me. He is in. control. completely. If I believed that, and believed all that comes along with it (including some serious side effects like unconditional love and forgiveness), my life would be completely derailed. for the better.

so, i need to work on that. big time. Lord, you are so good and you are so righteous and holy. If i follow the steps you set out for me, surely you’re going to take me under your wings. for.ev.er.

thirdly, it’s cold outside, baby. and that means cold weather outfits. and that, my friends, means. scarves. and other knitted goodies. because i will sit on the couch all night, snuggled up with a movie and the fiancé and my knitting needles. i think i’m an old soul. so, really excited for that. SO excited, in fact, that i have big news. this ol’ knitting hobby is gonna get me somewhere, yessir.

i’m opening an etsy shop. an etsy shop for big cozy scarves and such. so check that out. buy a scarf or two to keep you and your lovelies warm this holiday season.

{ coming soon }

p.s. tomorrow is thanksgiving. i’m gonna eat and eat til this little one inside me knows what thanksgiving is all about. eating being thankful, of course. this thanksgiving, i’m thankful for you, fiancé. and for being home. and for people that love and support way past your understanding. and for a God and savior who loves you, no matter what.

and for yummy food.